Shannon’s Pick: Runaway

But as long as we're together then forever is never too long

Full disclosure yesterday and todays write ups were done in advance due to  infusion day and this time of the year with my feelings being all over the place.  It's also why today's song fits perfectly because running away would sure be so much easier, especially when you have someone to run away with.

Edit...So those were my feelings pre-infusion and I gotta be honest I could have never imagined how different I would feel post infusion.  In my Wake Up Time write up from the beginning of December I mention how hard these days are but that if you put in the work its worth it.  Well after 16 months of extremely hard work I was paid back in spades.  I have had many positive experience's but this is up there with the best of them.  

A little background information first.  So it is extremely hard to put in to words what an infusion experience is really like and each person experiences it in their own way and the same person may have different experiences with each infusion.  For me it's about feeling.  I don't really see things but I feel things in a way that is unique to the experience.  For example I always listen to music from start to finish and when I'm at the deepest levels during the treatment I no longer just hear the music I feel it.  It courses through my veins, it whispers in my ear and for someone who loves music it is a beautiful experience I wish I could share.  So yes, I feel my infusions deep in the depths of my soul.  

I have felt the presence of something beyond all of this. I have felt how we are all connected to each other and quite frankly to everything.  I have felt the presence of those who have gone before me, both human and our dogs.  And this time I had Shane with me for the journey.  It brought me a level of peace about his death that I have never had the luxury of feeling before.  He showed me I only need to look to Larry and the boys for reminders of him.  That they have the parts of him that I loved inside of them and that is the gift he gave to me when he left this earth so I could always have him with me.

Gabriel has that artistic/adhd brain that Shane had.  
Connor is one of the most caring and compassionate people just like Shane was.  
Larry, well he became my new partner in crime and best friend.

I will never stop missing my brother or grieving his passing (see my Worried write up specific to the Billy Bob Thornton video) but I am in a much better place with it and better equipped when the waves of grief come crashing on the shore to deal with them until the tide takes them back out again.

Larry’s Perspective:

I wasn't familiar with this song, but there's a lot I can relate to and have touched upon in the past. Running away from Ohio; wanting the aliens to come abduct me off earth, and no lie, I sometimes pass my time on YouTube watching Hobo Shoestring - and dream of doing that! Seriously - look him up!

Now I know Shannon is expecting to be a part of my life forever, but I'm pretty sure she would draw the line getting on an alien spacecraft or becoming a hobo.

But I understand this sentiment with this song - and if you haven't had the same type of relationship we have, then A) It sucks to be you; B) You're sick of reading our relationship stuff; C) You won't ever understand this note - that in good ways, it doesn't feel like the 30+ years we've had together is "forever"; It feels like the blink of an eye, so of course it would be easy to spend forever together.

Runaway
3 Doors Down

Did you ever think about running away
'Cause I was thinkin' about leavin' today
We'll follow forever where our hearts wanna go
Maybe we'll end up somewhere that nobody knows our names
Then things might change for the good

I wanna be somewhere so far away
To lie under the night at the end of another good day
I can't tell you how long we'll be gone
But as long as we're together then forever is never too long
Too long, oh no!

Did you ever think about not comin' back
Hoppin' on a train and we'll burn up the tracks
We'll jump off somewhere that we don't know how to say
Maybe hitch a ride from someone who can tell us the way
To where these things might change for the good

I wanna be somewhere so far away
To lie under the night at the end of another good day
I can't tell you how long we'll be gone
But as long as we're together then forever's never too
Oh, forever is never too long
Not with you right here by me
Maybe, maybe we'll just see, yeah
Where this road will lead for us

I wanna be somewhere so far away
To lie under the night at the end of another good day
I can't tell you how long we'll be gone
But as long as we're together then forever is never too...

I wanna be somewhere so far away
To lie under the night at the end of another good day
I can't tell you how long we'll be gone
But as long as we're together then forever is never too...
Forever is never too long!

30th Anniversary

Our Story - Shannon's Perspective

Our Story - Larry's Perspective

Ghost of a Chance (Rush) and why?