Shannon’s Perspective:
I read Larry's write up before doing my own today to get some context as to why this song is on here. I'm glad I did because it gave me the clarity I needed for my own write up.
Yesterday was kind of a rough day emotionally and I found myself having feelings of being a burden to the people I love, so being reminded that not only am I NOT a burden but I am actually needed and have purpose and value is exactly what I needed. Of all the demons I have been fighting and overcoming this one still likes to rear its ugly head sometimes. But that's where walking the razors edge comes in for me in this instance, I can't let the thought consume me and if I'm struggling to get it turned around I go back and reread some of our postings. Much like old love letters kept and revisited (that is one of the angles I have been looking at this project from) I can go back and be reminded or at least spark something in me. So today while writing my stuff a line from a Peter Gabriel song came running in my head so I searched to see if we had done a write up for that song in particular, I mean we have done a lot of songs so I can't remember them all off the top of my head , anyway I went back and searched and we had done one so I reread that writeup and it brought a flood of emotions as well.
The song? Love to Be Loved.
The line? And in this moment - I need to be needed
So now that I have been reminded of who the hell I am and what the hell I need to do, we move forward or we rest before moving forward but forward it is.
I wanted to provide a little context because while the song is titled Jealousy, this lyric is present:
And envy plays its part
Lifted from Dictionary.com:
Simply feeling upset that you don’t have what someone else does—and wishing you were in their position—is usually considered envy. Envy can be described as a mix of admiration and discontent.
In contrast, feelings of inner resentment and the outward hostility that sometimes results from such feelings are both thought to stem from jealousy.
However, it is often said that envy can turn into jealousy — and the point at which it does may not be so obvious.
Borrowing a line from The Pass - "Turn around and walk the razor's edge".
Here's what I mean by that reference. There isn't a single person that will ever read this that hasn't gone from Envy to Jealousy. But there are people who "Turn around and walk the razor's edge" when they realize they are being consumed by Jealousy. But not everyone.
Being a nerd, the easiest following example comes to mind: Gollum vs. Frodo. Gollum was consumed and Frodo walked that razor's edge and almost succumbed, but ultimately turned around. For the record, I was geeked up for the movies because I had read the books oh so long before they were made.
Besides this just being a beautifully crafted song and overall masterpiece, it takes you on that journey in five minutes forty seconds. It could end in a spiraling disaster, but it doesn't. Gollum vs. Frodo.
And including this song on this journey is hard. It hurts Shannon and I'm doing it intentionally. Which is not anything I ever want to do. But it's necessary. She has to be reminded and remind herself - the need she feels is me. I need her.
It takes a lot of heart
When you're stumbling in the dark
But now I feel better
I'm walking on the Earth
And breathing in the air
Now I feel stronger
Oh 'Cause life don't end
Love don't end
I feel need
When we reach our final song on February 19th, 2025, there are very key similarities between this song and that final entry. Those small, uplifting lyrics that carry so much weight...
Jealousy
The Call
I feel need
The coldness of the night
The coldness in my room
The heat from my body
Like I'm burning up inside
Face it or deny
The battle I'm losing
But life don't end
Love don't end
I feel need
Jealousy
You've got me now
On my knees,
You've got me now
It's an old time curse
But, oh, what's worse
Now I feel bitter
It tears friends apart
And envy plays its part
Now I feel weaker
But life don't end
Love don't end
I feel need
Jealousy
You've got me now
On my knees
You've got me now
It takes a lot of heart
When you're stumbling in the dark
But now I feel better
I'm walking on the Earth
And breathing in the air
Now I feel stronger
Oh 'Cause life don't end
Love don't end
I feel need
Jealousy
Oh you've got me now
Honestly
You've got me now (now, now)
Oh, jealousy
You haunt me now
On my knees
You've got me now...
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