Shannon’s Perspective:
“And I make her prove her love for me
I take all that I can take
And I push her to the limit to see if she will break”
Whether or not you, constant reader, have figured it out, the beginning of this relationship was filled with passion and fire and the stupidity that only comes from being young, in love and scared of having your heart ripped out by someone again. So, did a young Larry intentionally push a young Shannon’s buttons and did a young Shannon intentionally try and push a young Larry away? Of course we did, we were 22 and 21 and thought we were so superior.
Picking and listening to this song was like holding up a mirror - which is not easy and is somewhat embarrassing.
30 years later our life may seem more like rainbows than unicorns (AKA a wonderful but unrealistic relationship), but in the very beginning, I'm positive I was very much this song (a unicorn) vs. a rainbow to Shannon. An elusive "good guy" who would sweep her off her feet and treat her like a princess.
I was emotionally immature. I was literally immature. I was extremely cocky. I was egotistical. I was previously heartbroken. With being all of these things, there were times when I was less than kind. I was 100% the line:
"And I push her to the limit to see if she will break"
99% of that was for my selfish benefit. 1% was to see the actual result.
As time went on I really started to become self-aware of being a true asshole and that there were times where she was breaking. As I recall, I didn't like it and more importantly I was ashamed. She was trying to become what she thought I wanted her to be.
At a certain point, I "gave" her permission to be herself - that I didn't want to date someone who would give up who they truly were in order to be an actor for someone else's benefit.
After everything we've written so far this year, this may come as a shock - but it's the unfortunate truth. I was a jerk and an asshole and I humbly admit it.
I've spent 30 years working to fix those mistakes and I'll gladly spend 30 more...
30th Anniversary
Our Story - Shannon's Perspective
Our Story - Larry's Perspective
Ghost of a Chance (Rush) and why?
Ghost of a Chance 