Shannon’s Perspective:
“So much time has passed
I'd still meet you anywhere”
Growing up in the 80’s of course I knew who the Pet Shop Boys were. I enjoyed all their songs that got air play but I don’t think I ever owned any of their music until I met Larry. It’s always weird to me when we listen to them because it’s like I have forgotten how good they are, since I generally don’t choose to listen to many of their songs on my own. It’s not that I dislike them its just they are not the first thing that pops into my mind when I am deciding what to listen to. That being said I do know this song and can understand why Larry would choose it for this part of the project.
What a depressing fucking song.
When you talk about making it through dark days in a relationship, I guarantee the thought of I want it "the way it used to be" crosses your mind. And when this thought crosses your mind, one or both of you have fucked up pretty bad and cut some pretty emotionally deep scars.
I'd like to say that I haven't done that to Shannon, but I can't.
There have been some really rough times in the past 30 years. I went through a phase of complete apathy, not just about us, but about life in general - and that phase took a tremendous toll on Shannon and on us. It took quite a while, me coming back to life, as it were. I had damaged "us" pretty severely. I didn't completely cut down the trust tree, but I hacked it pretty good. Again - this was apathy only - I wasn't cheating, drinking, gambling, etc.
These are the lyrics that stand out to me:
I'd survive with only memories
If I could change the way I feel
But I want more than only memories
A human touch to make them real
It is great to have memories - but you need to be able to share those memories and stories with someone to truly bring them, and yourself, to life. You also obviously create new ones when you have that human touch.
But on the flip side:
What remains in time that didn't fade away?
Sometimes I need to see
The way it used to be
Sure that can mean remembering happy, great times, but I lean into the "Those who forget history are condemned to repeat it" thought process.
I never want to be that person ever again...
30th Anniversary
Our Story - Shannon's Perspective
Our Story - Larry's Perspective
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