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Shannon’s Perspective:
I've been living so long with my pictures of you That I almost believe that the pictures are All I can feel
It's always tricky when you are dealing with older songs on a mixed tape, maybe there are already memories tied to it. So before Larry put this song on an older playlist and I read his write-up for that playlist I had this tied to a different memory. The funny thing, it wasn't even my memory, it was Larry's and it was from before we even met. He told me the story when we were just hanging out as friends and since at the time I did not have any particular memories of my own tied to this song I guess I just naturally associated his story with the song. Which was fine when we were friends but the insecure and jealous side of me was not fine with it when we started dating because it was about an ex girlfriend.
Fast forward over two decades and Larry gives this song to me on a playlist and his writeup for that has forever changed how I hear this song (Larry has included it with his write up so I did not include it in mine). Now all I can think about is the few pictures I have of my father and the ones I have of Shane.
P.S. The photos you see above are the only photos I have of my father...
What can I say - I'm a sucker for The Cure. Again. Just like the Lovesong entry from last night, this was included on that same playlist that was a "imagine if" playlist - imagining if we had known each other is high school and only using songs during that period of time that I knew and loved since we both graduated in 1989.
Of course in 1989 I had no idea what really inspired the song, but as years went by small tidbits would surface - and honestly, surprise surprise, it's pretty depressing. This recent article helps illustrate that point. But without his decision to license it to HP, I'm positive we would not have The Cure we have had post Disintegration. Hat tip to Far Out for the article.
I'm including my writeup from my previous playlist and I think it says it all.
If you've followed along and felt the heartbreak in Shannon's life with the loss of the father that she never knew and the brother she dearly loved as well as the mother that was just that it name only, you'll understand.
Pictures Of You (The Cure, 1989) It’s really hard to make this list and maintain a mindset of the mid 80’s, especially knowing that you basically don’t have any pictures of your life.
I think you were the Saint Francis version of Goth (without knowing it) and I really think if I had shared this song, it would become one of “your” songs. I think there are parts of it that as you sang it, it would be you singing to yourself and to your dad…
There was nothing in the world That I ever wanted more Than to feel you deep in my heart
There was nothing in the world That I ever wanted more Than to never feel the breaking apart
Present day, I cannot tell you how much I treasured sitting with Jen and going through your year books. I, of course, appreciated seeing Shannon Rhodes from back in the day.
You had the discovery of seeing pictures of Shane that you may have never seen before, or even thought to look for…
Pictures Of You The Cure
I've been looking so long at these pictures of you That I almost believe that they're real
I've been living so long with my pictures of you That I almost believe that the pictures are All I can feel
Remembering you Standing quiet in the rain As I ran to your heart to be near
And we kissed as the sky fell in Holding you close How I always held close in your fear
Remembering you Running soft through the night You were bigger and brighter and whiter than snow And screamed at the make-believe Screamed at the sky
And you finally found all your courage To let it all go
Remembering you Fallen into my arms Crying for the death of your heart
You were stone white So delicate Lost in the cold You were always so lost in the dark
Remembering you How you used to be Slow drowned You were angels So much more than everything
Hold for the last time then slip away quietly Open my eyes But I never see anything
If only I'd thought of the right words I could have held on to your heart If only I'd thought of the right words I wouldn't be breaking apart All my pictures of you
Looking so long at these pictures of you But I never hold on to your heart Looking so long for the words to be true But always just breaking apart My pictures of you
There was nothing in the world That I ever wanted more Than to feel you deep in my heart
There was nothing in the world That I ever wanted more Than to never feel the breaking apart All my pictures of you
Ghost of a Chance 